i see now that many dreams, hopes and wonders people have are just impossible & sometimes i don't know why people, even me, why do we hold on to things that will not happen.
do we really think and believe that by some miracle blessings will fall from the skies? No, of course not. i really feel like giving up, my time, blood and sweat can be invested somewhere else, into something with a better future.
what a joke, there are hundreds, if not thousands of people who want the easy way out, maybe even millions of others out there who want what i want as well.
there are not enough platforms, and/or chances for everyone. and even if there was, i would not be outstanding enough,
maybe what i'm holding on is just a fused lightbulb. i probably was never cut out for it anyway. people around me who oft discouraged me are mostly correct,
"don't waste your time and money on photography. you're just doing it for the fun of it, and besides, you don't have the money to feed your hobby."
sucks to finally realize they're right, not one hint of untruth.
i really should let go, give up, admit defeat and eat the dust. fighter's spirit is finally tamed, i doubt i'll take photos again.
convince me if you may.
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